This time next week I’ll be sleeping in a cabin without air-conditioning shared with near strangers, about to embark on possibly the most adventurous summer of my life.
Bring it on.
This is what I do so late at night.
I stay up for hours wondering if I’m doing the right things in my life. I wonder about everything that I’ve messed up, and try and figure out how to move past them. I wonder what could I do differently to make myself happier. Should I transfer schools? Stay closer to my family? Or should I stay so far away and hope that with changing my major I’ll be happier with the new direction.
And then comes the crazy parts, where I think about what makes me the happiest, and I realize of course that it’s the one thing that I’ve always enjoyed and excelled at…Girl Scouts.
From earning my bronze, silver, and gold to volunteering at camp for 7 years, it’s the one place where I feel totally comfortable. I know that I’m great at it, and I’m confident enough to say so. And that’s what makes me love it. Knowing that I actually make a difference in the world. So what if I just had the courage to just try and see if that works out? Work at a council, make Girl Scouts my future?
Maybe one day, I’ll make up my mind. Maybe one day I’ll be able to happily say that I love my career. Until then, I do what is right for me at this moment, spend my summer working Girl Scout camp. The only thing that will get me through this week is knowing that the light at the end of the tunnel is a flashlight, ready for a summer full of sunshine and smiles.
After this summer? Who knows?
